Mission Failed...But Got Pressure....!!

plan ak failed....hu2...post sblom nih ak da gtaw sal plan ak utk gtaw my besh buddy nih bout my feeling...but,,suma plan tuh failed...hu2...sbb2 plan 2 failed adalah sbb ak skit prot sgt...hu2...1st skly,,ak kuar umah g amek dia dlm pkul 2 cmtuh...her sis oso ikut kmi...smpy ja kt cs,,kmi trus g mkn...kmi mkn kt cemara kt cs...ak mkn nsi ayam...lpas ja mkn nasi tuh,,prot ak trus buat hal...skit ja spnjg ak kuar...2 3 kly gak ar ak p toilet...hu2...skit prot sbb mkn o sbb nervous sgt...hu2...dsbbkn ak skit prot,,so ak pon not in mood nk gtaw dia...hu2...so plan ak trpksa la dgagalkn...hu2...mgkn mmg bkn msa utk ak gtaw dia lg kot...hu2...myb dia pon x hepy kuar ngn ak ari nih...bcoz ak agk snyap gak ar...ak skit prot sgt so ak trpksa snyap smbil brfkir cmna nk bg ilang skit nih...dh buang pon still skit prot...hu2...period cram kot...xpon sengugut..hik3...anyway,,sorry my buddy,,ari ni kta kuar xbrpa happening ckit...hu2...slalunya ak yg jd tkg kecoh...tp ari ak snyap lak...hu2...msa kuar td trserempak ngn 'x' ak..dia kuar ngn mmbe2 dia yg ak knal gak...then da sorg laki...laki nih ska kt dia gak...myb diorg brsma skrg o myb not...dlu pon diorg rpat gak...ak hepy law dia dh jmpa pggnti ak...yg mnmbahkn cdeyh & pressure ak skrg plak,,lpas ak bca blog 'x' ak nih...mmg dia cita sal kmi msa kapel dlu...hu2...mmg cdeyh sgt...tp tuh la,,bnda dh jdi...nyesal pon xgna gak...hu2...ak pon tekanan gak ar lpas bca blog dia...cdeyh pon ada gak...hu2...ak pon cian gak kt dia...mmbe ak nih td ada la tgur sroh ak brbek blik ngn 'x' ak nih...tp ak tkot ak cma kapel ngn dia sbb cian ja,,bkn brdsarkn cinta pon...trus trang ak gtaw,,mmg cyg ak kt dia dh kurg ckit...ak tipu dia kta ak still syg dia mcm dlu...tuh pon ak trpksa kta cmtuh sbb xmao dia cdeyh...ak dh xmao dia cdeyh lg disbbkn oleh ak...ak nk dia jmpa ngn org yg bleh wat dia hepy slalu,,bkn org yg slalu bg dia cdeyh cm ak...alasan yg ak bg agk xmunasabah gak ar...ak tpu dia kta ak nk ptus ngn dia sbb takot trlanjur,,pdhal bnda tuh mmg mustahil nk brlaku...dia pon kuat gak agama dia...smbhyg 5 wak2 xtggal...kcuali period la...hu2...di sini ak telah melakukan byk pembohongan...betapa bodohnya diri ku....hu2...ak takot nk gtaw dia hal yg sbnar...takot dia xdpt terima n akn lakukan kerja bodo...msa kmi break ari tuh pon dia dh tores tgn dia...hu2...klaw ak gtaw hal yg sbnar apa la yg akn dia uat pon ak xtaw...hu2...mmg btol la dia xsesuai ngn ak...dia bek ja ngn ak...tp ak yg tpu dia mcm2...hu2...seriously mmg ak tekanan skrg...dh la sok nk start pratikal dh...kna bgun awal lak tuh...hu2...arap2 sok bleh la ak bgun awal n arap2 ak bleh la tdo ngn aman mlm nih...so,klao btol la 'x' ak nih dh ada pggnti ak,,ak arap sgt2 diorg bhgia...n pesanan utk pggnti ak tuh,,jgn la layan dia mcm ak layan dia...hu2...tuh cita sal 'x' ak...nih sal ak n my besh buddy nih,,xtao lg apa ksdahannya...hu2...nervous mnggu sbrg kmgkinan...apa2 pon bleh jd...hu2...hopefully,lpas suma perkare krg bek brlaku pd ak ari nih,,ada jgak perkara yg akn menaikn semngat ak blik...hu2...wish 4 it...nervous smlm smpy skrg x abes lg...wlaupon plan ak yg sal my besh buddy tuh failed...tp still nervous...still thinking...what will happen tonight...hu3...whatever happen tonight,i will try to accept it and think positively....hik3...i hope something good will happen tonight...wish 4 that...ak arap besh buddy ak tuh x tekanan la...hu2...very hope 4 that...

p/s : moon and star...i wish u can help me...hu3...